Psalm 139:13-16 For You formed my inward parts; You covered me in my mother's womb. I will praise You, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made; Marvelous are Your works, and that my soul knows very well. My frame was not hidden from You, when I was made in secret, and skillfully wrought in the lowest parts of the earth. Your eyes saw my substance, being yet unformed. And in your book they are all written. The days fashioned for me, when as yet there were none of them.
God bless to any who read this. I feel led to share my current Lord lesson with you. Over the last couple of days the Holy Spirit has been ministering to me. He is clarifying His purpose and plan for my life. I will be turning 55 years old very soon. You would think I would understand my purpose by now, but some of us are slow learners. I have always been one to swim upstream, go against the grain, walk to the beat of my own drum, and have not been one to follow the crowd. I havent intentionally been this way. It's just the way I was born. I have unfortunately annoyed alot of people along the way with my seemingly difficult personality at times, but I must BE who I was born to be. Mostly I have felt misunderstood. Sometimes, I have made a huge effort to try and make things easy on myself and just "go with the flow," but I have always ended up miserable. We all need to be our genuine selves. God created each of us uniquely. In his eyes we are wonderfully made. We should therefore allow Him to continue His work and purpose in our lives.
So to continue with my current Lord lesson, here's what He is saying. He reminded me of a scripture in Jeremiah because I was inquiring about my walk with Him. The above verse in Jeremiah was one of the first scriptures He megaphoned in my spirit when I first started walking in the prophetic ministry about 3 short years ago. He reminded me of this scripture because I seem to "just say no" to particular doctrines or teachings. Examples of these are, Obama the Antichrist, being taught by bible saints like John, Zechariah or Elijah, and lately the Bride of Christ. You would have to dig through past posts to find out exactly what i'm talking about, but I have clearly been used to dispute these teachings. To further describe how I feel, my initial response upon hearing these particular teachings would cause an unidentifable uneasy feeling. Like what Morpheus in the movie " The Matrix" described as a splinter in your mind.
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I was discussing this with the Lord Jesus and asking why can't I just "fit it" and accept mainstream doctrines and ideas because I would like to just "get along." He helped me see that he made me this way. The Lord is saying to me that I was born to root out and to pull down, to destroy and to throw down, to build and to plant. I believe we are all expected to do these things, but some of us more so than others. I think back when I was a kid. I defended the kids who were picked on, I befriended the outcasts, and I'm not afraid to stand up for my beliefs. I was born in a family of 4 children. I was the second born and I am the only girl. I therefore grew up learning to defend myself very early. I think if you would ask any of my 3 brothers today, they would tell you I am a force to be reckoned with (or in man terms:crazy). I also grew up under the influence of an alcoholic Father. At the end of his life he got right with God, so no worries there. However, I believe God used these things to create my strength. Despite the discomfort it brings, I just want to please God and do my part in this life. So, with all that being said, I will continue to fight the good fight of faith. I will do my best to hear from God, and share here what Im supposed to share. With love in Christ, Robin b